Have you noticed how good news and bad news often arrive in clusters? A dear friend of mine has had a series of difficult, inconclusive health reports, accompanied by decreased ability to walk or stand for more than brief intervals. When I asked if she ever felt angry at God for all the unanswered questions and her progressive health losses she responded, “Not really. I just keep repeating this mantra over and over when any negative thought creeps into my mind:
'May God’s Love flow through me for God’s greatest good.'”
Then she proceeded to say, “I have no idea what I’ll be invited to walk with in the future, but I know that if I keep walking in God’s loving energy, one day at a time, one step at a time, I stay amazingly peaceful. That doesn’t mean I don’t have times of tears as I grieve the multiple things I need to let go of right now, but I’m being given the strength to not stay there when I repeat my mantra and allow God to gradually reveal to me another aspect of my highest good. I have so many dear friends and family that are like a tender womb of safety, carrying me into an unknown “new me.”
This is not a new stance for my humble and radically authentic friend. As she worked with persons on hospice care and walked gently with their families on the journey, she continually walked the liminal space of mystery. I guess authentic people discover a way to:
Receive and Radiate
God's light of truth
God’s unconditional love
God’s empowering strength and
God’s compassionate presence
She sounds a bit like Julian of Norwich who famously taught us that: “All will be well, all manner of things will be well”.
It is an honor to walk with my friend on her mysterious path.
Mary Rachel Kuebelbeck, OSB